Please Don't Kill me :)

Everything u have seen is an part of a game…. I said to ma friends named Chinnu, Navi, Beni. Chinnu came towards me and slapped on ma cheek and said “U cheat”, Navi folded his fist and punched on ma nose, Beni started his punch with some “F” words that I have never heard.

Me. I am sorry friends… I was just kidding.
Chinnu: No, Niranj u have cheated everybody, we can’t believe you… and from here we are no more friends, Let’ s go Beni, Navi, she said

The three of them moved and faded into the darkness by leaving me alone in the seashore. I didn’t feel any pain on ma cheek and stomach, may be the after effect of vodka that I had before our meeting.
The one thing I want to tell u that it’s a true story, may be you can assume it as a story of a loser, a cheater who cheated his friends for his own personal interest.

I don’t know why I did it to them and to her, but I felt hurt at that time, I just wanted to make a revenge. I laid on the sand and looked the sky, the clouds were floating above ma head, the moon and stars were talking something each other, murmuring something, may be something about me or what I have done. I just closed ma eyes, and some flash backs flashed on the sky.

I saw you yesterday
I lost myself when I sighted you
My heart became like sieve
Where did I go without seeing you
Days were wasted due to that

You are the moon in the sky
I drain myself longing for you
Why don’t you come with me right away

You gave your shoulder to bury my head
You held my hands and came nearby
Why you are not ready for lip lock?

This was written on ma diary when I saw her first time. I had lot of emotions, thoughts about her, but failed to express my emotions.

One day I decided to tell her what I feel now, but she didn’t replied. After some days got some rumors about her like she had a boy friend and they would get marry soon. I didn’t see things around me and I wanted to forget her.

I told everything to ma friends. Don’t worry Niranj, you will get another girl, they said.
It was most upset day in ma life, I wanted to forget everything, so I walked towards the door of Bar, and poured 3 glasses of vodka into ma mouth.


@7.30 PM

I was day dreaming without sleeping
my life was freezing when I didn’t come near you
where is future for me without you?

I wrote it in ma mind, and wandering along the street. I reached home, and jumped on ma bed, covered ma head with blanket
No, I cant sleep today, I wanted to do something.

@8.30 PM

I opened ma Laptop, and started to goggle talk. None was there, what would I do now.
I just wanted to hack in to ma Ex girl friend’s account so that I could see her new boy friend.

I attempted a lot of tricks (I can’t explain it now) to hack into her account, none was there in her chat list except “navi”, “Beni”,”chinnu”. My brain was creating some plans, so I started a chat so that they would think that she was chatting with them, an anonymous chat from her account.

Me: Hii
Friends(Beni, navi, Chinnu): Hii
Me: I wanted something to say , and don’t tell it to anyone.
Friends: OK
Me: I love “Niranj”, I am ready to give up anything.
Friends: But you have a boy friend, you were engaged.
Me: Yah, I can’t, I can’t avoid his love.
Friends: Ok, Did u expect any help from our side?
Me. No, Plz don’t tell anything to him.
Friends: Then what do u want now? Why didn’t u tell it?
Me: I don’t knw, but I realized that his love is pure.
Friends: No use, 
Me: Yah, I know… If he said a word I would give up everything, including ma family and ma boy friend for him.
Friends: OMG, we only have one day, and your marriage would be on day after tomorrow
Me. Yah, I know…. Mmmmm Please help me 
Friends: Ok I will.


@ 9.30 PM

Yepee, I closed ma lap. Now I set the fire. I got a sound sleep on that night, but ma friends didn’t I think.

The three of them called me 10 times but I didn’t take up the phone, since I was in deep sleep.

@7.00 Am….. Morning
Your friends are here, he is upstairs, ma mother told them. I took a deep breath.
Niranj, we have to do some work, plz come with us quickly, they said.

Ok ok, where ,I said. It’s not time for a talk, get ready ASAP.

I took a blue Jeans and black shirt.

Nooooo.. Please I can’t come to her house, I said.
Chinnu: U have to, Please come with us, we have a plan to do.
Me. No, not this time.
Chinnu: Come on Niranj, I want to talk with her.
Ok Ok, what’s the matter , I replied.
We would say it , not now only after everything is finished, Chinnu said.

We reached her home, and it was decorated with lights and flowers, her family members were there. I didn’t recognize any one except her mother, since she got her mother’s eyes, I said in ma mind.
A that moment I got some clues about their plan, oh yah. They believed ma Anonymous Chat with them, and they are going to act for it, what should I do now?

My god I wanted to escape from this situation, luckily she was not there , I called ma friends and said I got pain on ma chest, please take me to hospital.

They took me to hospital in Beni’s car, hmm it’s the time to say everything to them, and I wanted to stop this Drama,,,, hmmmm but… no not this time I would say it after her marriage as a surprise.

We spend the rest of the day in that Hospital.

@7.00 AM Morning (Marriage Day)

Beni and Navi called me, we met together in “Kovilakam Bar”, we started our drink from wine to vodka. Now we don’t have any complex in our mind, free to tell anything and everything to anybody. I took the car to the marriage location.

Chinnnu called us several times, but we didn’t take the phone. She was on the location; we jumped out from the car like set of Goondas who are going to kidnap the heroine. Navi started crying at this time, and we don’t know the reason.

Now we are infront of the make up room, she was wearing a Red Saree, with marvelous ornaments. She came towards us, You looks beautiful, I said
Thank u, She replied.
Navi: We are ready to kidnap u now….
Me: what, he is kidding, what hell are u talking Navi ?
Beni: He is telling the truth, We know everything, we have the plan to escape from here, please give us a word, a single word
Me: They are in some Alcoholic mood, Don’t worry, I will take care of them, I said to her.
Chinnu: Yah, u 3 are in that mood, But me not…. So you can believe me, Just come with us, Everything is set.

This time everything in me burst out, not the whole truth but what we had in the morning in our stomach, now the whole marriage stage became pool of alcohol, and some foul smell..
We three vomited everything from our stomach. Her father, mother and family friends came there and asked to leave from there asap.

We left the place, and now we didn’t say anything together. I drove the car to a beach

@6.00 PM
We were sitting on a sea shore.
I want to say something, am sorry, sorry for everything, I said.
On that day I hacked in her account and I did the anonymous chat with you, not her, she didn’t have any knowledge about this, and everything you have seen is a part of a a game.

This is what happened, now I lose ma dearest friends I had.. I don’t have words to apologies.
I want to get back them to ma life, I visited chinnu first. I gave ma cheek and 3 liters of Ice cream to solve the issue. It’s hard to convince the girls mind, so what about the boys ?
Simple 2 bottle of their favorite brand.

I solved the whole issue within two days.

@11.00AM
I opened ma laptop, gmail automatically signed in into her account, I immediately signed out from the account, and I opened ma own account.
This time I completely shocked, got a mail from her, … it was like this

I am so sorry for ma late reply, I just want to live with you, I know you love me more than anything, I can’t avoid you, Please I can’t live without you, If you are ready to come with me please come tomorrow in the railway station, I would be waiting for you there, Please Don’t come to ma home.

Wow, on that day I didn’t check my mail, I wasted ma whole time for drinking, hacking and anonymous chatting with ma friends, I didn’t thought about my account too.

Now I have two options, 1. Bar 2. Pen. The first option is the reason for everything happened to me, so I opted the second one and started with the line “ Everything you have seen is an part of a game, part of an illusion done by god not by me”

Hmmm, I took a deep breath.
It just takes a moment to say "No"
To actually come to terms with it
I need another birth
If there is love, Come and blend in with my eyes.
If you are stopped by time, Come and blend me with the sand.

END